Thursday, March 11, 2010


Motivation is a very funny thing. It comes and it goes. sometimes you can't find it and others it hits you in a instant that you have to jump up and do something. I seem to have had a lack of it since I was let go from my job. But, I do have spurts of it. I asked a friend to day, what motivates people to get up today and start moving if they have no idea what they are moving towards. I have no children, so there is no motivation to take care of another human. I have no job, so I have no reason to get up and go anywhere. I have no money so there is no motivation for going shopping and getting something new. I swear if it were not for my dogs and them making me get out of bed I wonder if I would try to sleep a whole day away.
I think the only thing that has helped me is these two factors, money is running out so I have to find a job. The weather getting nice also makes me want to get out of the house, so that helps too. My question is what motivates you if you have nothing to be motivated about/

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Text message

I get this text message last night from a friend in the process of divorcing her soon to be ex-husband. Here is what the text message said, "If I came get you will you come over here. I want to have some guys from work come over and I can't be alone in the house wiht them alone, per my laywer." So, how would that make you feel? I don't feel like I was invited becuase someone wanted to hang out with me? I feel like I was just spouse to be there because I was just a female body. I didn't do it. But this is kinda bothering me today. To know that I am always there for my friends becuase I love them, not to be used like a human body. Time to evaluate friendships and what is important to me.

Friday, March 5, 2010


It has been almost a year since the last time I wrote a blog. But I got lost in life and really didn't have the time for the Internet. But, since I, like the other 14 million people no longer have a job. I go to try to draw unemployment only to be told that I am not eligible to draw it until October of this year. Ha, so what to do with that. Good thing I had some money in the bank to cover some of the bills. But that will run out and I will not have any income if I cannot find a job. I have and will continue to look for a job.
Now, why things did not work out. Well, that woman who was my boss, was just the meanest, most hateful person I have ever had the pleasure to ever encounter. I learned a lot about myself and companies that really have to good personal ethics. But I cannot judge the way they choose to live their life. However I can judge how I was treated.
That is all I have for now. I will be back at some point I am sure that no one reads this and that is fine I am just going to write on here for my own sanity in this journey I will be taking in the months to come on looking for a job in a screwy economy.