Friday, October 31, 2008
I know I haven't blogged in a while but so much is going on in my life right now. Not good things either. I have become very depressed with life and my life and everything in it. I have tried and tried to pull myself out of this hole but the more I try to get out the deeper in I fall. I have gotten to the point of not wanting to wake up, not wanting to go anywhere, not wanting to do anything. I haen't been like this in so many years, Im not sure why I am like this. Yes my car broke down and still is not fixed. My boss is the biggest bitch / lier I have ever encountered, so my job is horrible right now. My house is still in disaray because I cant bring myself to do shit with it. the people who have helped me are not throwing it in my face as if I like to ask any one for help. It just is shit on top of more shit. I can careless if I wake up each morning. I can careless if the sun rises and the sun sets. I can careless if my house is never put together, I can careless if I lose my job. I know this is not the normal happy blog. But not everyday is happy, not everyday can you be optimistic about everything. This is just raw truth with the way I feel. I hope everyone is doing better then I am. I will try to blog again when Im happy or when life is better. Until then I hope everyone enjoys what you have.